purplelistic

i'm confused, im someone who needs friends at work, i'm goin into my 6th month at work and i still cant find a real fren there. Its downright miserable. 6 mths there and no beer night, no outings after work AT ALL. the most is jus lunch. No one helps each other at work, the word 'help' is like a bad word at work, no one says it to another person at work.

such irony, i wonder isit me or the working env. I like it to be a big family style where itslike frenly and nice. but here i feel like its every man for himself, everyone's trying to see who can knock off at 6pm sharp.

its like, duh! to me.

i dunno, now that i dun hv anymore expiry date, i lack the motivation. sometimes i wish i hv an expiry date again.

ignore me, im just fucking confused.

mayb i shld go for someo sorta personality trait test so they can tell me wat im suitable for so tt i wont be so miserable.

i went past some pubs jus now, and saw a young girl smoking outside the row of pubs near Nair Rd. For a moment I tot of myself a few yrs back. At that moment I wanted to walk up to that girl and tell her to give up her current lifestyle before its too late, but i didnt, cos i know if someone said the same thing to me a couple yrs back, i would hv told him to shove it.

anyway, sometimes i like my job sometimes i hate it. im confused n stressed. pls just ignore me.

2:17 AM