u know how life can be depressing every once in a while? tt's how im feeling right now. bloody depressed. confined at home cos of my many injuries n wounds, have many things i wanna share w someone but cant find anyone suitable. These 3 weeks hv been hyper crazy! i wish i hv an outlet for it. U know how u can hv so many pple surrounding you but yet you feel so alone n lonely, sometimes i feel tt way.
u know wat, i hv so many things on my mind i wanna write about i dunno where to start, when i try to focus on one particular point in my mind, tt point vanishes, brilliant aint it, the way ur brain works.
u know how someone can be incredibly talented yet handicapped at the same time? there's an extrememly rare brain dsyfunction, that usually people with autism may have, its called savant syndrome if i remembered correctly. Peolple with Savant syndrome has no left and right brain, they only have 1 brain, all in the middle, and bcos of that, they have an amazing capacity of memory, they are able to remember almost everything they read n come across.
i happen to see a documentary on such a person, who is in his fifties now, the doc had deduced that he will make it pass 8yrs and even if he did he will nv be able to walk and suggest putting him in an institution. but this man did all that and more, he nv forgets any book he read, he remembers every single book he reads! word for word, he is able to tell you the line and page number n recites word for word. He can walk like everyone else however, he needs little help with his everyday life. His dad nv gave up on him, he found wat the doctor said as ridiculous, his son could remember every book he read, n cos of his love for his child, his child now shines, n ever so brightly. They now travel all over the states and give talks to college students and the public about his son and his incredible talent and creating awareness. A movie was made in 1988 about this guy, named Rain Man, starring Tom Cruise, the only difference is tt in real life its the Dad caring for this guy instead of his brother. Worth catching. =)
i've watched another documentary on 独居老人 in sinagpore, n was so suprised to find out that there are over 20,000 old pple living on their own in SIngapore, some even hv to rely on their also-elderly-but-not-as-old-as-them-n-can-still-walk-with-a-walking-stick neighbour to buy them meals.
its heart-wrenching but i felt helpless as i watched the doc. the only thing i can do is to make sure that my parents will nv become or join the 20,000 statistics.
nv ever let the convenient excuse of 'im busy' and take you away from the pple that matters. ur frens, family, ur significant other, ur grandparents, ur buddies. Everyone.
I use to not unsderstand y someone would not live everyday with hope and see each tmr as a brand new day of opportunities as i do, i would think they need a readjustment of their mindset, n completely disagree with ther pessimism. but as i grow up i realised that its probably cos they hv nothing to look forward to, n each tmr would mean newer problems. N to think i was so naive thinkin that everyone's life is as perfect as mine, with parents acting as knights and fending away all the nasty things in life. Now tt i realise how lucky i was growing up and how lucky i am still now, i jus hv a simple wish that i can be the type of mummy that my mummy has been to me, she has solutions to EVERYTHING, she is wonder-mum, i wanna be wonder-mum to my kid to, if one day i think i m able to be wonder-mum, then i guess its the day im ready to be one. =)
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