i'm not happy, mayb not as happy as i can be. i wanted to be so many things, i wanted to do so many things. i had ao many dreams and aspirations. i wanted to be a teacher, i want to go to the mountains and teach, live a rural n fulfilling life. i wanted to be a housewife, bake cookies w my children, cook and clean the house, read stories n play soccer. i always tot i will be happy, there was no doubt about it, but now i'm not.