had a rather painful breakfast this morning. had breakfast with the nasty aunties this morning.
defination of auntie: to me, anyone (female) around mum's age is 'auntie'.
define nasty?
Scene 1
when auntie A (harmless but no one realli likes, but ever stabbed me) asked auntie E (profile: single, korean-star-CRAZY, pins up pics of herself taken w korean stars n Energy in her work station) for some stuff from the warehouse, which is jus below my floor and has 1 rather gd looking warehouse guy tt looks like JH, anyway, A asked E the location for some stuff which is E's area, n E screams, 'Go where find? Go below find? Go hell n find huh?' wah, so shitty right? then E said to another colleague in hokkien (i had a translator) 'the more she's afriad of me the more mistakes she makes'
i'm like wah piang!
Scene 2
Auntie T (profile: blur, unattentive, weird) was mentoring under E when her nxt-of-kin passed away, E commented (in hokkien again) 'early dun die, late dun die. now then die' wah! she damn poison lor. i hear already also hot sia.
But the culture in my office here is such tt everyone will jus keep quiet, no one told her off, no one wants to hv conflict w her, so one says anything, so she gets worst n worst. I didnt personally hear anything of the above, the very nice auntie C (profile: takes the same transport with me, will hold my hand when crossing the road, we exchange books to read, will ask maid to prepare breakfast for me, low profile auntie who loves to watch tv) told me bout her to ask me to becareful n not step on her tail.
i wonder if i hear it will i retort her back, most prob i will, i CANNOT stand pple w bad manners, i cannot say tt i'm polite n hv gd manners but i try my best to make pple around me feel comfortable w me.
i wonder if the aunties here really need the job tt's y they dun wanna hv conflict w anyone here, its their rice bowl, their livelihood?
tt's y i dun wish to be in their situation when im of tt age, if i dun like i can afford to choose the option to leave, tt's y everyone, we muz constantly upgrade ourselves. Boss ask me to find out if there r any informatics course tt i can take to improve my access database n excel, to do more really more in depth analysis, gd opportunity, will go n see see.
there r 2 pple in my dept tt simply cannot get along, I and A (they sit side by side w no partition so they create their own by using files n brochures) , all the 'stories' tt i know of is from grapevine, i personally experienced this myself. Was needing A's help so i stand behind her while she was helping me invoice for my courses, then I (pls note tt when i'm talkin bout myself i use small cap 'i', but when i talk bout others i use 'I', dun confuse huh)answered her call n said '.......who is that stupid person who ask u to call me? i cant quote u ma, my boss is out, who is the stupid person, knows boss is out still ask u to call me?....." then A suddenly said 'she nv tell me she needs quotation ok?'
i was standing behind, lost n shock, I's 'stupid' person is talkin bout A, wah, so fierce n direct lor, need anot. n this happens everyday, it got me wondering, if i'm A i would hv quit many many yrs ago lo, they've been lidat for bout 6yrs+. its like damn kua zhang lor, kana verbally abused everyday, shit right? but I is ok with every1 else, mayb sometimes mean, but not as directly mean as to A.
In my opinion, A should quit cos she dun deserve this, she shld respect herself n quit, she deserve more than tis, no one deserve to be under such mental torment everyday. i shld respect her for her endurance, but funnily, n brutally honestly, i dun. Even if u dun respect urself n submit urself to such treatment, n allow others to treat u this way, how do u want others to think of u? n treat u? i'm actually surpised at my own thinkin in this case, but i dunno y, tt's how i feel. u can live with lesser money else where n at least hv ur dignity n self worth back, if everyday some one treats u with such meaness, i dun think ur self acceptance level n confidence will be v normal, to a certain extend u may even start to believe tt u deserve such a treatment (which in my opinion, NO ONE does), n one could be pretty messed up in the head.
some may think tt she may need the job, she has kids, a family to support, she needs the money, yes yes yes, i know tt, considered tt, has gd colleagues, gd benefits, gd bonus, gd company, but u know, i dunno y, but i still think otherwise.
mayb cos im still young with no financial burden yet, tt's y i dun understnd the will power she has, mayb it simply doesnt bother her cos she has already mastered the skills of 'hear-no-evil', i dunno, cos i cant, will not put up with such rubbish, n will dun want to. to me, its is extremely unacceptable.
i like to analyse cases like these, then imagine myself in the same situation n think how would i react? it enables me to understand myself better, its interesting. then i would check w mum or jh, tell them the scenerio, n ask them if it was me, how would u think i would react, n see wat they say.. hahhaah.. i m such a nut case... but heck, i like! =p
i dun understand y pple can be so mean now tt they r grown ups n wking? ur colleague promotes, u shld be happy for them right? congrats them n be happy. i know i will, mayb cos my position is special, i hv no one to vie w me for promotion, im a one-woman-show, but its ok, no help = no competition = no bench mark = no one to vie w me for promotion, but hor, my position in the first place dun hv promotion de lei.. haha.. but its ok, happy tots helps me to stay sane in the office.
remember my tasmania devil brown slippers tt i bought in goldcoast? i brought it to my office n walk all around in them, haha. im the only who does tt, my colleague even showed my boss n say' so cute hor' my boss jus smiles. haha. cutesy slippers doesn't affect my wk performance ma. hee..
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