To the zoo! Had lunch with po po and my 2 little cousins at the HK street restaurant, the cousins are a disappointment but shall not wash my dirty linen here, met dar at the zoo, and off we go! Bought a bottle of mineral water and some sweet stuff in case i get my fainting spells in the sun..
'Take picture take picture, i really come to the zoo!' and so dar helped me to...
Aiyo, no sign of the zoo, cannot cannot, take again.. and so...
Dar: 'Gd imitation of your fav animal!' grinz
Ay: -.-"' 
walked thru the bridge into the zoo, saw a lonely alligator basking in the sweltering sun.. Isn't it great to be a kept animal in the s'pore zoo.. shi xing fu de loh....
One thing though, the s'pore garhment is so actively asking us to 'stomp out mosquitos' wat bout the zoo? alot of stale water lei, n mosquitos, zoo keepers n animals wont get dengue meh? i wonder wat preventive measures they have.. any idea?
The elegant and damn proud animal, but still everyone crowds around.. but they are gorgeous, n dun smell as bad as i tot.. mayb cos they r really faraway, there's like a river in between us n them.
They are so darn nimble on their feet, there are so many times tt i tot they're gonna fall off the cliff, but nah, they jus wanna lure us closer. I wonder if we place white tigers with normal brown tigers, would they recognise that they r both tigers? n if they mate would we get beige tigers? hmmm... FYI, white tigers are not albinos, they are simply white.
Actually, they have a pretty comfy livivng environment hor, artificial greenery can look so natural, if u keep staring at the background of green u might really think ur in one.
when i saw this, i'm like, wah lau! this bird, at one stage in New Guinea, can be exchanged for 8 pigs or 1 women lor.. *faints* what were they thinking? women should be worshipped lor, ok ok, mayb not literally worshipped, but exchanged? i prefer to disillusion myself n think they mean they can use this puny bird as dowery. i stood there for a gd fifteen minutes tryin to spot this passe bird but damn! they hide well! the decendants of these birds r probably ashamed of themselves. wahahahah...
We walked up n went for the elephant show, majestic animals, they r so huge in size, yet so gentle in nature, my gentle giants!~
We left slightly earlier before the show ends n headed for the tram, while waiting for the tram a little indian girl rubbed her tiny hands on my ass, she's like 2 or 3 yrs old, n all she can see are asses n jeans pockets, my ass is jus at her eye level, n so she used her palm n rubbed my ass, i'm like, -_-III n keep rubbing. wah lau, my ass not toy lei, damn pai seh lor.. Anyway, after her mum pulled her away, she carried on w someone else's ass, while we took this pic of us, n with my stubby button nose.. poor dar, he look so tired, woke up at 6am that morning.. hugs!
My latest crave! Florida Natural Fruit Juice Nuggets! Very Yummy lor, if u can look beyond its very childlike packaging, which i adore! so cute hor, but dar wants nothing to do with it... haha.. Try it, absolutely yummy!
Giraffees lazing in the afternoon sun... effortlessly eating juicy leaves that zookeepers painstakingly tie up in the fake trees for them.. irony..
Little bushes cut into animals shapes.. cute! Giraffees n Elephants..
Primates playing in their man made habitate, not knowing that humans get weekends off and go to the zoo and watch them 'work' muahahhahaha..
Watching one of the world's largest animal behind a glass panel.. they cant be in those 'open-spaced-man-made-habitat like the primates cos if they do they will probably jump over the enclosure and ripe the tourists' head off, we have smart pple working in the zoo!
I take one look at these little furries and went shrieking into dar's ears 'MADAGASCAR!!!" n zoomed to look at them, they're really tiny btw..
I ran hysterically there, stood in front of them n tried very hard to think which character depicts this animal? n i'm still thinking.. mayb its not Madagascar.. mayb its another cartoon..
Isn't the write up hilarious? if only humans can do the same then all the ovulating testers will go bust.. muahahha..
Beautiful flowers reflecting the setting sun... mummy nature at her best!
Had dinner here.. but what a disappointment.. the chicken has a super duper heavy choking chicken smell... yucky... i remembered it being super nice when ky n i went for training at the zoo a couple of yrs back.. wat happened sia.. damn.. n its darn ex.........
Half way thru dinner serene called n we were on the ohone for so long tt dar started taking pics, wat to do but to pose n oblige.. *grinz*
Let me explain this pic, dar seemed exaperated cos this is the.. erm.. i think 7th shot before i got it right, u see, the natural light mode wasn't gd enough for this shot so i had to try several times ma, by the time i was finally finished, there was a mini queue of polite tourist waiting to cross over standing at the extreme right of the pic.. wahahahhaha...
this somewhat concludes the funny day at the zoo.. somewhat cos i hv more pics but its taking one hell of a long time to load so i gave up.. this entry has been in my draft since 31st march.. hoo boy..
6:55 PM
In case you still have noticed from my title, I'M HAPPY~!
Absolutely glowing from happiness on a gloomy, rainy, cold monday morning!
The grey skies outside cant get me!! nah nah nah!! haahha.
First things first, apologies for takin sooooo long to upload Ky's bday pics! so so so sry, after i used my bro used it for a shoot. Will do so tonight.
In case anyone is interested to know if we went to the zoo, WE DID!! n it was DARN FUN!! i was skipping all over the zoo, lookin at everything, SS was rather embarassed when i skipped up a little 'hill' to see the lepoards. hahah.. he was like -.-"' haha, but he enjoyed himself no doubt.
Saw ann poh n her SS at the zoo, n she looked very gd, btr than on tv actually.
and while i was there, i saw zebras n got me thinking, u know how ponies n donkeys n horses are used to transport goods n pple in the conventional days, but y aren't zebras? they are about the same built as ponies but y aren't they utilised as transportation? hmmm.. anyone has any idea?
and i discovered something fun! did u know polar bears have black skin? underneath all the creamy white fur?? n do u know wat this means??
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the halls commercial! it is inaccurate! u know the halls commercial with the one that has the polar bear shaving its own skin to keep cool? then the halls commercial will say, we have a btr way to keep cool. HALLS... somethin like tt, if u noticed, the polar bear's skin is pinkish like a rabbit's or hamster or dog, anyway, it is not black! tsk tsk.. someone hasn't been doin their homewk.. i have pics to prove, will post in a later entry...
i had LOADS of fun at the zoo! n they r renovating quite alot there, the penguins r renovating, SS didnt get to see them, but we did see the elephants pee n poo, n boy do they have a HUGE bladder, it was like wah seh.. lucky we were faraway. The elephant actually poo poo n peed during the elephnay show, hilarious! haha..
we went to the fragile forest too, but only the in front cos i was too chicken to go in, i keep imagining frogs of all sorts will be jumpin on my feet, fragile FOREST ma, forest sure got frogs de ok! haha, so i chickened out, last min. i said 'come on let's go!' SS looked at me skeptically n say 'sure, anot? u can meh? forest leh, sure u wont get allergies?? alot of creepy crawlies all around i guess' i was like, oh ya hor! FOREST lei, omg, 'i think we can skip this la, all forest are the same, insects ma, all same de hor' n we went off, i swear SS was smirking with the i-told-u-so face behind my back. BLEAH!
haha, i had fun n we would be goin to the night safari soon, was thinkin ask SS to bring me to the science centre one of these days, it should be fun, they have the grossology there, qns like y humans fart n all that kinda generally useless but interesting to know kinda knowledge. =)
10:26 AM
a new chapter...
u know how it is, when someone special experiences a major change in their lives you have the feeling that your live's gonna change too?
its not so much when its myself, cos i know i will still be the same silly me, as someone special (ss) says 'u always manage to think stuff that others nv think bout' n not in a gd way mind u, in the silly way.
anyway, i enjoy being silly, i enjoy being blur, i enjoy being simple, i enjoy having a gd temper tt pple will tend to advantage of, hmmm.. not exactly enjoy but i like my personality, its not too complicated, jus nice for gd ole simple me. but of course i hv my blow ups too, when i'm mad, when i meet with situations or pple that i deem not tolerable, i will not hesitate to blow up, n when i made up my mind, its pretty hard to convince me otherwise.
Was having a conversation w ah fu last night, he was saying about something alng the line of how i can be so determined in the things i decide n hv such a strong mind of my own but when it comes to wat colour i wanna paint my room i take so bloody long to decide. For those who didn't already know, the previous time we had a minor renovation, i repainted my room 3 bloody times, the painters were like -_-III.... from v soft lilac (which i feel is not strong enough of a colour for me) to lime green (which turned out too overwhelming a colour for a whole bedroom) to finally a mixture of orange, blue n yellow now.. haha..
anyway, latest news, u know how my msn nick has been 'i wanna go to the zoo!', ss says we can go this sat!! provided i can wake up on time, so i replied him sayin, 'who says muz wake up early to go to the zoo??' wahahahah.. so ss replied, 'ur not a sun-lover, the afternoon sun will probably kill u'
haha, true, he made a video of our 1st sun-tanning trip n i was sitting there looking all sulky and unhappy n look damn wei qu, so ss picked up his digicam n started recording 'y r u lookin so sad at the beach?' poor me replied 'cos so many sand, so warm here, so much sand, so dirty, y here so many sand...' n i went off rambling nonsensically bout y beaches has to have so much dirty, rough sorching hot sand. n by this time ss is already rolling on the ground amused by me n my nonsensical ramblings. everytime i watch the video i laugh myself silly!
anyway, if nothing goes wrong, we're goin to the zoo this sat!!! anyone wanna join us? hahah, bring ur sunnies n throw on a cap n sun shade n let's go! as ss said, 'if u can wake up on time'
wahahhaaha... its gona be an interesting afternoon whether anot i can wake up.
to ss, do think of plan B in case i cant wake up ya? hee.. night safari??
8:39 AM
i enjoy talkin to you cos i know u wont judge.
i feel comfortable telling you my secrets n things tt i dun usually share cos we dun hv mutual frens.
i like your company cos u make me feel safe.
i enjoy ur company cos i know u r game for anything.
i wanna tell u all my secrets but now u've be one of them.. . ..
and a bigger secret is, i like keeping u a secret..
10:35 AM
OMG! OMG! OMG! OMG!
remember i was sayin i would be going to sweden in june? after which will be goin switzerland, boss jus emailed me details to go to Kiruna for the midnight sun trip in nothern sweden! OMG! u know there's this hotel tt's made of ice?? tt's the place we're goin to stay! OMG! http://www.icehotel.com/ its so so cool! haha, literally too.
know y isit called the trip of the mid night sun? cos the summer in Lapland is intense, they go 100 days without nights.. ..
the sun springs to life and continously burns for 100 days n nights without setting, melting snow n icw transforming countryside into vibrant green.
the nights are as bright as the days, across forests and mountains, the sun shines intensively, waking the river and making it shed its winter garments. (haha, modified from the literature tt the agency sent us, =p)
u know wat? 1 pax cost 13,600 SEK, using FEb's rate of conversion of 0.220639 that is bout 3000SGD per pax, wah piang! n on all co's account! gd buy hor. hee.. if i nv calaulate wrongly la.
wah, so gd, BUT, the company is not. i dunno the distributors n they r all at least 40 yrs old. cannot click... so sad.. YT (girl, my colleague, who's also goin, profile: 26yrs old, takes v gd care of me, also get me out of shits i get myslef into at wk, my best bud at wk), she wanna go Norway then Finland, cos she has a penpal there who can bring us around.
Geographically speaking, it is easier to go to Paris n Switzerland as they hv direct flights n airports, but for Norway its more inconvenient b darn ex. Finland is a train ride from Norway, on the way ma, already go so far liao, go lor.. hee.. in s'pore, a train ride away means to potong pasir, dol's place or hougang, von's place, in Sweden a train ride away is Finland, wah seh! impressive.
BUT hor, YT says muz prepare at least 2.5k as expenses, for internal flight to norway n train n accomdation. i where got so much money. so now muz save lor, n no credit card, how? hotel we muz pay 1st then claim. so headache.. sianz...
sigh.. if i really cant save enough then i'll hafta go to the sweden for the midnight sun trip d. wrong company... .. . sian.. ..
im confused. dun think i can afford to go Norway n Finland on my own.. =(
12:09 PM
had a rather painful breakfast this morning. had breakfast with the nasty aunties this morning.
defination of auntie: to me, anyone (female) around mum's age is 'auntie'.
define nasty?
Scene 1
when auntie A (harmless but no one realli likes, but ever stabbed me) asked auntie E (profile: single, korean-star-CRAZY, pins up pics of herself taken w korean stars n Energy in her work station) for some stuff from the warehouse, which is jus below my floor and has 1 rather gd looking warehouse guy tt looks like JH, anyway, A asked E the location for some stuff which is E's area, n E screams, 'Go where find? Go below find? Go hell n find huh?' wah, so shitty right? then E said to another colleague in hokkien (i had a translator) 'the more she's afriad of me the more mistakes she makes'
i'm like wah piang!
Scene 2
Auntie T (profile: blur, unattentive, weird) was mentoring under E when her nxt-of-kin passed away, E commented (in hokkien again) 'early dun die, late dun die. now then die' wah! she damn poison lor. i hear already also hot sia.
But the culture in my office here is such tt everyone will jus keep quiet, no one told her off, no one wants to hv conflict w her, so one says anything, so she gets worst n worst. I didnt personally hear anything of the above, the very nice auntie C (profile: takes the same transport with me, will hold my hand when crossing the road, we exchange books to read, will ask maid to prepare breakfast for me, low profile auntie who loves to watch tv) told me bout her to ask me to becareful n not step on her tail.
i wonder if i hear it will i retort her back, most prob i will, i CANNOT stand pple w bad manners, i cannot say tt i'm polite n hv gd manners but i try my best to make pple around me feel comfortable w me.
i wonder if the aunties here really need the job tt's y they dun wanna hv conflict w anyone here, its their rice bowl, their livelihood?
tt's y i dun wish to be in their situation when im of tt age, if i dun like i can afford to choose the option to leave, tt's y everyone, we muz constantly upgrade ourselves. Boss ask me to find out if there r any informatics course tt i can take to improve my access database n excel, to do more really more in depth analysis, gd opportunity, will go n see see.
there r 2 pple in my dept tt simply cannot get along, I and A (they sit side by side w no partition so they create their own by using files n brochures) , all the 'stories' tt i know of is from grapevine, i personally experienced this myself. Was needing A's help so i stand behind her while she was helping me invoice for my courses, then I (pls note tt when i'm talkin bout myself i use small cap 'i', but when i talk bout others i use 'I', dun confuse huh)answered her call n said '.......who is that stupid person who ask u to call me? i cant quote u ma, my boss is out, who is the stupid person, knows boss is out still ask u to call me?....." then A suddenly said 'she nv tell me she needs quotation ok?'
i was standing behind, lost n shock, I's 'stupid' person is talkin bout A, wah, so fierce n direct lor, need anot. n this happens everyday, it got me wondering, if i'm A i would hv quit many many yrs ago lo, they've been lidat for bout 6yrs+. its like damn kua zhang lor, kana verbally abused everyday, shit right? but I is ok with every1 else, mayb sometimes mean, but not as directly mean as to A.
In my opinion, A should quit cos she dun deserve this, she shld respect herself n quit, she deserve more than tis, no one deserve to be under such mental torment everyday. i shld respect her for her endurance, but funnily, n brutally honestly, i dun. Even if u dun respect urself n submit urself to such treatment, n allow others to treat u this way, how do u want others to think of u? n treat u? i'm actually surpised at my own thinkin in this case, but i dunno y, tt's how i feel. u can live with lesser money else where n at least hv ur dignity n self worth back, if everyday some one treats u with such meaness, i dun think ur self acceptance level n confidence will be v normal, to a certain extend u may even start to believe tt u deserve such a treatment (which in my opinion, NO ONE does), n one could be pretty messed up in the head.
some may think tt she may need the job, she has kids, a family to support, she needs the money, yes yes yes, i know tt, considered tt, has gd colleagues, gd benefits, gd bonus, gd company, but u know, i dunno y, but i still think otherwise.
mayb cos im still young with no financial burden yet, tt's y i dun understnd the will power she has, mayb it simply doesnt bother her cos she has already mastered the skills of 'hear-no-evil', i dunno, cos i cant, will not put up with such rubbish, n will dun want to. to me, its is extremely unacceptable.
i like to analyse cases like these, then imagine myself in the same situation n think how would i react? it enables me to understand myself better, its interesting. then i would check w mum or jh, tell them the scenerio, n ask them if it was me, how would u think i would react, n see wat they say.. hahhaah.. i m such a nut case... but heck, i like! =p
i dun understand y pple can be so mean now tt they r grown ups n wking? ur colleague promotes, u shld be happy for them right? congrats them n be happy. i know i will, mayb cos my position is special, i hv no one to vie w me for promotion, im a one-woman-show, but its ok, no help = no competition = no bench mark = no one to vie w me for promotion, but hor, my position in the first place dun hv promotion de lei.. haha.. but its ok, happy tots helps me to stay sane in the office.
remember my tasmania devil brown slippers tt i bought in goldcoast? i brought it to my office n walk all around in them, haha. im the only who does tt, my colleague even showed my boss n say' so cute hor' my boss jus smiles. haha. cutesy slippers doesn't affect my wk performance ma. hee..
tata~
9:34 AM
i kinda realised tt my blo only resolves surround me, me , me n me..
its getting kinda boring, i want the entires to be able to challenge my reader's thinking and get them getting.
had lunch at TM's Mos, there's a little auntie there who is v pleasant and looks so cute, she's jovial n fun. However, what breaks my heart is that she is age but still hafta wk.
there're however, 2 sides to everything, she could be jus passing time, or could be she needs the money for survival.
watever the case, seeing her clear trays n clearing after young abled pple after their lunches broke my heart. u may argue tt it is a srvice provided by the fast food restaurant, however, i can tell u confidently tt 10yrs ago, they dun seem to be the case. Pple clear up after themselves, put all the rubbish in their trays n empties it in the bin then placing the trays back on top of the bin, wat happened?
y do i remeber so clearly? simple, mum trains us to clear up after ourselves, so i did, sad to say when i still clear my tray during sec days, my classmates looked at me in bewilderment n exclaimed tt i dun hafta do it, i scoffed n did it anyway, but sad to say, as time went by, i become one of the lazy abled pple like the rest of the world. sad isn't?
there is also a legislation in Singapore tt says we have to provide for our parents when they are of age, if not, we can be fined. I'm serious, its called the 'maintenance if parents' act' (chapter 167B). Googled it if u dun believe.
it is used to controlled slime bags who do not pay up when their parents are in hospital, or dun go and bring them home after they can be discharged. Of course of they r unable to pay up it is an entirely different story, or are unable to pay rent, the case goes to CDC (central development council) who will help them get charitable orgs to help pay for their rental n S&C charges.
That aside, r they that many Singaporeans that r slime bags till the govt sees it as an issue to put thru a legislative, (FYI, the 1st legislation went thru in 95 and revised in 96). That to me, personally is kinda absurd isn't it?!
I mean they're quite a number of pple sticking chewed gums all over Singapore then stopping normal train services tt's y gum was banned. But are there tt many parents being abandoned to an extend tt they muz hv a law for it? Unbelievable...
On the other hand, there are aunties n uncles tt we see on the streets that r outstandingly unreasonable n a pain to even share public transport with, can u imagine living under the same roof as them? hmmm.. mayb that's 1 of the reasons. Anyway, that's jus my catharsis. So much for abreaction...
Anyway, did my maths to buy my dream car, a Honda Jazz, assuming $0 downpayment and 10 yrs loan at 3.6%:
car instalment: $603
gas : $300
carpark : $75
tax : $70
insurance : $208
maintenance : $50
TOTAL : 1306
Wah piang! so damn ex lor. *faints* looks like i have a looooong looooooong way to go sia.. i even calculated if i wanna be a millionaire n retire at age 45, i should start investing agrssively with a pay back of 10%, i need to invest bout 6000bucks a mth, but *sigh* cant do it also..
tt's y i gtg back to work now...
tata.. ..... . .
1:56 PM
sometimes i wonder, i've been living my live prim and proper all my life.
ok ok, not all, but these fews yrs, after knowing decent pple n leaving undecent ones. Sometimes i miss my once eventful life, but we all hafta grow up.
Gone r the days of being oblivious to the stress of daily lives, gone r the days of pure enjoyment, gone r the days of being irresponsible.
As we grow up, we raise the stakes of everything, we need moew now to make us happy, more money, more branded, more time, more clothes, more raise, higher position, we used to be happy w goin to Bkk, then HK n Taiwan, then Melbourne, then Europe. aiyo....
when we were young, we only hv 1 bag, for sch, then 2 for sch n out cos our things wont fit in mummy's bag anymore, then as we go on, sling bags, haversack, goin-out-bag, goin-out-shoppin-bag, goin-out-dinner-only-bag, goin-dinner-n-clubbing-bag.
Then make up, using nothing, then cleanser, then moisturiser, then all the crucial 3 steps. Then foundation only, then foundation w spf, then foundation n 2way cake, then loose powder, then blusher, then the most magical of all concealer.
Then mascara only, then discover mascara with fibre extensions, then found eyelash curler, then eyeliner, then pencil or liquid, brown or black, line upper eye only? or both? gothic? smoky or girl nxt door.
by now u shld get my drift, the list jus gets longer, in fact all list jus gets longer, the list of frens, the to-do-list, the to-buy-list, the pple-i-wanna-catch-up-w list, the wat-i-wanna-do-when-i-hv-money-list, the wish-list.........................
blah blah blah blah..
its jus like when the guy is still 'woo-ing' u, he does nice stuff for you like fetching you to dinner, remembering wat u wanna eat n bring u for it the nxt time u meet, when ur caught in the rain comes n pick u up without u having to say, tt kinda thing u wil be touched, BUT, once he becomes ur bf, things changes, ur expectation of him increases, the time you guys spend together increases, conflict n friction increases, u expect more, to fetch u everyday, to pick me up when he's not wking, to make u smile all the time, wat he use to do is no longer enough? y is tt so?
i wonder..
If we jus keep enjoyin the whole woo-ing process n not get committed, in this way, wont the we get to enjoy romance with all the hassle? Grrrrrrrrreat isn't it?
some may argue tt no committement = no assurance, the guy may be treating 28 other girls e same way as you, n u still think u r special, tt would be dumb. Tt's y we muz identify the 'players' n the 'non-players'.
Allow me to further elaborate with live examples, 'players' they we all know is our uni classmate who drives a *olkswagen to sch and has a 'unclear' relationship w a girl in our class, this kinda player is non-committed, lookin for short term fun only, they seek attebtion n thrill n no-strings-attached-pls 'relationship', yet has a stable gf, no one has actually 'seen' the gd, n there r no pictures of his gf in his frenster, neither does he mention her, we jus know tt he has one. Oh well, i shouldn't judge, mayb he does hv a gd side tt i haven seen.
anyway, non-player would be coco's 'best fren' in uni, (*hint, it is a her), who recently added me in frenster and splashes her 'loving' pics all over frenster, afraid tt users would miss it, actually i'm not sure if she is a non-player, she jus strikes me as a very 'closely knit' relationship w her significant other. which makes me rather nauseous at times so i try my best to aviod her profile.
Guilt hovers over me as i continue typing on my keyboard, y am i in such a bitch mode today? i finally found the ans deep inside..
1) i am genuinely upset w e hairdresser tt completely messed up my hair on sunday, i look like crap, in certain angles i think crap looks btr than my fringe but anyway, its shitty.
2) not to mention tt ,y eyelash extensions r gettin pretty messy to maintain n its irritating me, i reallt took care of it, i dun rub my eyes anymore, apply n remove make up so bloody carefully yet it is not as well maintained as i tot it would be, not tt it is falling off or the extensions r dangling at the ends of my genuine lashes but rather my eyelash r messy, wah piang, whoever heard of messy lashes, bad hair day yes, bad lash day? -_-III
but i still LOVE the extensions, jus wish they can be darker so i can hv the bigger eye effect without having to spend too much time on it.
3) im suffering from mahjong withdrawal symptoms, not tt i cant cure it, but i dun really like to play w ppple tt i dun know, like fren's fren tt kinda thing cos mahjong is quite a lengthy affair n if you dun hv a common topic or u meet w someone who is 'determine' to win n on high concentration mode n tsk at every card u discard, tt kinda mahjong can be pretty painful.
received 2 invitations to play mahjong till now, one from winnie, n from from junie, thks, but pai seh la, i shy.. haha..
no names mentioned so pls dun assume tt i'm talking about you, in case you think i am, do check w me.
this is one hell of a purposeless entry with no meaning, jus ramblings.. pure nonsense..
i despise myself..
3:04 PM
Monday again..
Yawns..
How was your weekend?
Mine was great, jh came over n help me fixed up me new pc, then we had a great quiet lunch n walked around buying things.
it made me realised tt i miss him, alot. its jus not worth wking so hard n missing out so many things. The things tt r really important. Now i realised n will adjust accordingly.
Read pop's blog n realised tt she has the same realisation as i hv, a simple meaningless word tt we say in sch, used in the wk place can be interpretated as something as. So totally weird.. anyway, i dun enjoy wkin life.
Realised tt i hv been constantly whining continously for the past few blogs, reading back i cant stand myself, whining about the same things over n over again. Yucks. u guys should ask me to shut up already. But i know u guys love me too much to do so. wahahahaha.
a fren's fren got married, (shot gun) and i saw his pics on frenster, the whole family is so loving, but the thing is he still hasn't done his ns yet though, same age as us and all, but his pics make me feel so loving. But i guess we would nv understand the stress he have to go thru.
pops n me hv the same thinkin, we wanna get happily married to the guys we love and r prepared to give up our career, to look after our little one, bake cookies with them, bring them to play sch, give them hugs and make them feel like they r the most special child in the world. When they're in sch we clean the house, make lunch n dinner, once in a while we can even meet for high tea pops! haha, so xing fu hor.
but there r many things to consider, pratical issues like monetary issues, can 1 set of salary be enough for the growing family n for our parents? n bills n shit, in my humble opinion, practical n dreading issues r wat kills romance in a marriage. Mum says to give up n compromise my lifestyle now would be a must, n she did so too, for me n bro. hai...
anyway, i'm so so so looking forward to seeing the girls this sat!! no exact plans yet but i know it definately will be a kick ass day!
oh ya! over the weekend i fell in love, i fell in love w a Marc Ecko watch, But if i buy at OG i get 10% off. hmmm...
Bought a little carrier from M)phosis on sat, n the hua yang shao nian shao nv vcd, n the washing powder n moisturiser from Fancl! Very gd, the vcd is hilarious, the washing powder is gd and the moisturiser is so smooth!! i recommend all! Fancl's stuff has no preservative at all, n its small n compact n easy to use with such lovely packaging. Very easy to use n u will keep wanting to use it cos its so cute! hee..
I went to Next salon to get my hair cut cos it was in such a mess, BUT the girl screwed up, the worst thing to having a hair dresser that doesnt listen to u, dun understand wat u want, has a mind of her own to doin wat she wants with YOUR hair, and doesnt listen to you.. aiyo.. hai... and to make things worst, she has this stale cigarette smell on her fingers n breathe, OMG, its quite a horendous experience i would say.
BUT the lady boss is soooooo pretty, so small built, fait n petite, she is of certain age but yet look so gd! i wanna be like her lor. aiyo.. so well maintained! 1 mth once facial routine now dunno can anot.. hmmm...
My trip to sweden has been confirmed, my flight details are not settled yet, only departure date is confirmed, i'm leaving on e 24th June. Mum's having this graduation thingy on the 23rd, she gets to wear a robe n all, so cute hor.. haha.. so we're all goin to support her!
my boss asked me if i wanna go paris after the convention, on co.'s acc of course, but goin w distributors, n mayb him n another mgr, so weird lei, gd la, only pay for shoppin, but weird lei, so im not so keen to go cos my colleagues wanna go Norway.. so... i dunno, will decide when i hafta, cos scully my boss 'force' me to go paris n entertain my distributors how? hai...
generation gap lei, u guys know how i am when i go shopping, i go bersek lei, so pai seh hor, n no one to discuss w me even worst, i buy all.. haha..
will keep u guys updated.
10:25 AM
叶的离开,是风的追求,还是树的不挽留.......
终于,叶还是随风而去.........
春天,叶来到了树的身边,叶对树说:"我永远陪在你身边好吗?"
树说:"好啊" 他们会心的笑了.
夏天,叶与树好快乐的在一起,叶感到她是世界上最幸福的了,可是,树渐渐觉得:叶是快乐的,她应该去追求更广阔的世界,而自己,什么也给不了......
秋天,风的到来打破了原有的安宁,风是喜欢叶的,他对叶说:"你愿意跟我走吗?我会带你去世界上任何一个角落,你会快乐的,我保证." 叶说不,"我要和树在一起." 而树面对风的到来,却动摇了,"叶应该跟他去的"树这么想着"风会让叶更快乐的."于是,树冷漠的对叶说:"你走吧,我早就已经厌烦你了."
面对突如其来的打击,叶震惊了,"为什么,你不要我了吗?"而树却依然冷漠...........
终于,叶还是随风而去..........
然而,树错了,离开树的叶渐渐枯萎,她忘不了对于树的依赖,终于她还是放弃了风,选择静静的落下地面,等待死亡.......
冬天,树的眼泪化成水,变成云,结成雪,覆盖了叶的凋黄.......
叶,原谅树的懦弱好吗,树不明白快乐的原因啊...............
第二年春天,叶来到树的身边,叶对树说:"我永远陪在你身边好吗?"
树说:"好啊".......................
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came across this in one of my fren's writings, its so sad, yet so true.. many a times we take our own perception n 'force' others to accept. its jus a human flaw, but i hafta admit tt i do that v often. i'm jus a pain i guess, its so much easier to ignore other pple's feelings then to acknowledge them, especially when its unhappiness n hurt.
right now i'm tryin to pile myself w work, everytime i quieten down n feel tt i hit rock bottom, n sadness overwhelms me, so i jus hafta keep on wking.
i'm so sorry.. i hope i will understand what i'm doing one day.
11:14 AM
woke up today not wanting to go to wk, but i still force dragged myself. not cos i was feeling unwell, but cos i didn't wanna, i am unwell emotionally.
thinking of taking 1/2 day to see a doc, my gastric also acts up when i'm upset, 'helpin' me to worm out of many things. i can feel it cramp as i type.
i'm playing with the thoughts of quitting again, not cos i cant cope or that its stressed, all these i can take, but rather, what it has made me become. i m no longer happy, i m a workaholic, i no longer hv the energy for anything else, i m easily irritated by wat i like in the past, i've become a huge pain, i m constantly lethargic, i hate it, n i hate myself.
i shld jus quit, but that would mean my insurance would all lapse cos i wont be able to pay, but i wanna pursue my dreams, do wat i wanna do, sell ice-cream, do advertising, be a manicurist, many may argue that no cpf, blah blah, no savings, blah blah, i hv no savings to start with anyway, i jus wanna do wat i want to now tt i am young n still hv drive.
this is my 1st job n i'm so unhappy, its not right ya? this company indeed has many opportunities but r they wat i want?
i hv already made up my mind to quit so y am i still hesitating? i tot i hv made up my mind last week, to endure n go to sweden 1st, then when i come back its appraisal n increment time, then its bonus, so i shld jus endure ya? argh... i dunno!!
i jus want things to be back to normal, to be back to before things got so complicated, when i was happy again. isit my wk or isit i'm not ready for wk? i hv a sudden urge to quit right now cos i'm so unhappy.
i miss myself badly...
9:28 AM
Let's say if ur given a choice in choosing wat u want? say, being male or female? wat would you hv chosen?
Since majority of my readers r females, n only the foot-print leaver is male, i'm curious to see if your ans would differ. For me, i would like to be a male, a tall male pls, hmmm... looks wise, average, but i will sign up for charisma class, but i'm torn apart by choosing whether i shld be an ah-beng-ish guy or a suave gan dang, ah beng would mean i would be manly n naturally handsome (ok, ok, so the real life ,e have a thing for bengs) but a suave gan dang is who gets all the pretty chicks n gd jobs n cars.
Dun you think gan dangs in general, gender aside seem more aloof n difficult to approach? FYI, i dun see myself as a gan dang anymore, ever since i've entered my very extremely chinese secondary sch, i'm much more chinese-nised n see myself as a bilingual now. Ha..
But the weird thing is that a majority of my frens still speaks to me in English, wo ting de tong hua yu hao bu hao, jus tt mayb my pronunciation can be offkey at times, at times nia ma, no need to be so critical right? =p
back on track, gan dangs are often perceived as more high class n the funniest thing is that they are all always assumed as Christians? Y huh? Totally unrelated! They do have mass in mandarin n even dialects ma, I hv actually attended a teochew or isit a Cantonese mass with my po po, by the time my poor brain can decipher the first sentence n translate them into a language I can comprehend, they r already at their 3rd paragraph, so I ended up counting how many pple actually wore white tt day, then black, then coloured hair, then braces.. Ha..
back on, n gan dangs are often assumed as ‘rich’ goin to ‘private’ schs or convents or missionary schs, where’s the link again? Eh, am I the only one who assumes gan dangs r lidat or u guys share the same sentiments?oh ya, I was actually talking about whether I wanna be a beng or a gan dang, being a beng means I would hv to live up to my name, I would hv to be aggressive, ‘fierce’, not necessarily loud but muz hv a gd command of hokkien, not Cantonese, not teochew, jus hokkien.
I need to hv a tone muscles, hmmm, be well built, not those disgusting jumping titties muscles type, but jus shape n toned, and the ability to drink a lot o beer without getting drunk, have to hv crazily coloured hair, which I already hv, have to hang out at coffe shops or pubs with equally crazily coloured hair frens with their hands around their brightly coloured hair gfs with tight mini-skirts, thick make up with foundation / 2 way cake that are 2 tones to fair and that doesn’t make their skin colour, thinly plucked eyebrows, with badly rebounded / coloured hair tt would be damaged cos of over processing.
After jus typing all these out all these ‘fluently’ n non-stop on my keyboard, I begin to silently wonder to myself, am I biased to ah lians? I’m sure now ah bengs n ah lians r not ‘in fashion’ anymore, now’s the yo-yo-wat’s-up hip-hop era, BUT, you cant deny u still see girl’s with awkwardly long ‘feelers’ looking fringe pasted to their face n long pointed combs sticking outta their pockets once in a while.Some may argue that I myself may have been one of them in my sec yrs, I muz admit, I did try my v best to, but in the end I jus dun look like one, I tried dyeing my hair, sunglasses, short skirts, tuck my uniform extremely inside, feelers fringe, everything, I tried everything, in he end, 1 day I told myself, ‘forget it girl, no matter how hard u try ur jus gonna look so girl-nxt-door’ BUT the ironic thing after I STOP trying, n in poly all the way till now, I hv often been labeled as more ‘lian’ then I hv ever been, n mind u, I feel offended if you tell u I’m a lian, cos I M NOT, not anyway, now I’m jus.. hmmm.. chic.. wahahhaha..
4:01 PM
Generally i would say i'm quite a fan of cloudy days, not a critic for rainy days, ONLY IF i hafta wake up on a cool, mildy raining morning!! its so arghhh!! its so warm n comfy n u feel so loved all wrapped up in your comforter n the darn alarm blast off!! its so, aiyo!! for my case, its not THAT bad cos mum wakes up about the same time as me so usually there's quite alot of , movement at home, gotta leave my place at 7am or before or i'll miss my co.'s transport.
so every morning i hafta drag myself out of bed, brush my pearlies, quickly shower, then stare in the mirror n decide if i'm gonna declare a bad hair day, then change, grab my bag n walk to the bus stop.. ok, ok, sometimes i gotta run abit so i can catch the bus to the designated stop.
but, wat i'm thinking is who's the wise guy that decided that official working time is 8 - 5 anyway? who decides he's boss n let him decide?? y didn't they ask for MY opinion???? hummmph... not fair!!! i mean 5 days work week is a brillant idea, but come on, doesn't 4 1/2 days work week sound way better? fridays should be allowed as shopping n errands day, ok ok, subjective, those who wanna go after lunch can do so, if u think u cant finish ur wk u r allowed to stay till 5 on a fri, fair now??
all these comin outta someone who stays till 11+ in the office yesterday night n often wk really late nights isn't really convincing, BUT, i didn't choose to ma, cos i cant finish ma, n if i dun finish wat i'm given i will feel out of sorts ma, BUT, i'm getting work wise smarter! can wait, let him wait, will do the genuinely urgent stuff 1st. HA!
Yawns.. i'm really lethargic today, wanna skip upstairs for coffee but i may slip cos the corridors r slippery, so i'll probably jus walk upstairs for coffee, yawns, who's the ingenius guy who plucked coffee beans n decide to grind them n mix them with hot water n drink for morning perkiness? we shld all worship him! oh, ky doesn't hafta worship him cos she doesn't drink coffee, so we'll count her out. yawns...
mum bought a chopping board tt is kinda 'new age' who real life oranges picture at the bottom of the chopping board, anyway, my point is y r oranges called oranges? i mean i know they r orange in colour but u dun see us naming grass 'green' or lemon 'yellow' right? so y r oranges named orange? wierd hor?
later tonight i gotta go carlton hotel n have dinner with our distributors, with my whole dept n all the major bosses, major sianz.. entertaining is so tormenting... . . . polite smiles, painful small talks, opening speeches. argh!! n it was last min that they ask me n the engineer to buy the lucky draw prizes, so we spent 2,000 buckeroos in 3 hours, damn shiok!! hee.. not easy though, so we bought all electrical appliances from BEST DENKI in taka.. we went there m point, i want this, this, this, this, that n that.. wah... feel so shiok.. haa.. of course we did it in the utmost polite n humble way la.
tmr is my co.'s DnD, the theme is 'Glorious Gorgeous' its our 100th yr anniversary at Four Seasons Hotel, officially knock off time is at 3pm, but i think i'll probably be roped in to do some misc stuff before tt, sigh... n after dinner we''re gonna stay in one of the rooms in the hotel to continue to party, but i'm so dead tired, thinking of slipping home. yawns...
is there anything besides coffee n chicken essence tt can gimme energy? i desperately need some now.. yawns..
9:19 AM
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