Forgot to add that upon hearing that i'm thinkin of buying a little Gucci purse, my guardian angel left 200 bucks on my dressing table as my x'mas pressie!
Thks Guardian Angel!~ -hugs-
4:45 PM
BIG Sigh~
X'mas is officially over, today's alrdy boxing day~
All the hype over the season to share n befoe u know it, its over! ya ya, x'mas is 12 days n all but try tellin tt to the corporate pple, some pple hv no sense of joyousness! hummmph..
BUT, i had a GRRRRRREAT X'mas, with my buddies n the gang.
We always try n spend x'mas eve together! its a tradition! Bought them party packs little log cakes from coffee beans but they gobbled them up b4 i can take pictures. Greedy pigs!
Played mahjong at Qi's till late, more like dar played n i watched then went supper w dar, poor dar, spent x'mas's 1st few hours w me till bout 5+ hen he slept, wakin up at 6.30 for work.. Poor thing.
Today's boxing day n office's officially shut but i'm at wk now trying to clear some stuff n do online courses, damn tough.. *bleah*
Sorted out stuff n i'm feelin much better~
Serene's back from Japan today! But oops, haven bought her x'mas gift yet, shit.. gotta go buy soon.. till later!
Joy's visiting from Melbourne!! I miss her, gonna meet up in sat or fri night, haven quite decided yet! she sent me an email, i msg her n the nxt thing i got a call from her yelling 'ANYI!!' when i haven even hv the chance to say 'hello'. Typical Joy! i'vw known her since primary sch n we r in so many ways alike, blur, ditzy, bouts of HYSTERICAL laughter! wahahhaah.. i miss her alrdy! She's on her way to BKK now, will only be back on fri, which i FINALLY gonna get my jacket back, n YES, ITS BEEN AT HER PLACE FOR A YR NOW. wahahah, im such a procratinator. =p
1:22 PM
Girl: will u still love me tmr?
Boy: Of course!
Girl: will u still make me smile tmr?
Boy: I always will silly. =)
Girl: even if I’m in love with someone else?
Boy: sure… always..
You know you love someone when you want them to be happy even if their happiness means that you are not a part of it.
11:31 AM
BIG Sigh~
My colleague says i look mature for my age, damn sianz.. .. . ..
Tellin a girl she looks mature is like telling me i look darn old, -_-II
Upsetting sia. .. .
Especially since my colleague is quite cute looking. =p
But oh well. . . . Tryin to convince myself tt i'm not, so as long as I dun admit to myself then i wont be, wahahahahha.. self denial syndrome... darn.. feelin low on the fri of x'mas weekend...
Especially when it is a bothersome issue to me since, u know.. . . Its been a chokin thing tt's been bothering me ever since you know, aiyo. . . . i read an email bout how we shld be responsible of our own feelings n tt when we r upset or angry w wat pple says, it is actually bcos we CHOSE to be upset by their comments. After i read the article i was like, wooooooo. . .. . deep.. . either the author has an extraordinarily high EQ or the rest of the world has none. So i chose the latter to make myself feel better.
Anyway, the issue is not wat others think, its the fact tt i think i look much older than him as well, but the universal fact is, I AM indeed older, wat a hell of a contradiction, i'm older but i dun wanna look it, n i want the person who's younger and who irritatingly has a baby face which i fell in love with, to look older, wah piang! I think i'm gettin abit crazy. It muz be the overdose of x'mas spirit or the lack of it in the office. *bleah* sucky. . .
till later!~
10:20 AM
I'm still adjusting to the whole wkin thingy, environment n all tt jazz, my job requirement is tough shit, but i think i'll survive, i hope.
Hope u guys r doin better than me, miss u guys lots, i've been laughin very little since i started wkin, my colleagues call me the walkin zombie, its so unlike me, i miss u guys badly.
10:17 AM
a million things hv hapened since i last blogged.
graduated, left my comfort zone, wakin up at the crack of dawn, made new frens, made mistakes, had anxiety attacks, stomach flu, broke someone's heart, gonna get mine broken, bonuses, confusion, learning... The works.. . .. . .
Do pple change when they start to wk? Isit the lack of self restrain or simply the simple lesson of survival of harsh reality? Often wondered wat it would be like to pursue my dreams instead, not the drawing one but the one on speech theraphy, would i hv been happier now? Not tt i hv anything to complain about now, i get paid on time, i dun hv to do laundry, i hv enough to eat, mayb not quite enough to buy my wat i want but i'm doin ok i would say, enough to pay insurance, sponsor a kid, give my mum, blah blah.. lucky dad nv said anything about payin him back college tuition fees, love u dad!~
I am truly blessed, but pple often dun count their blessings, my buddies love me unconditionally even w my weird eating habits n millions of allergies, my best fren who's jus a phonecall away n nv fail to understand how i feel n a mum who always manage to wipe up a gd home cooked meal no matter at wat time of the day.
Truly blessed with unconditional love but yet i often make mistakes, i think i'm heading towards a major mistake but yet i want to try, there's so much to lose yet i may nv get anything in return but yet i'm thinkin, wat the heck. Wth am i thinkin?
for X'mas, i wish i work by protocol, a set of pre-set commands, like a pc, dun hv to think, jus follow instructions!~
Coordination is a BIG part of my job and i deal with ALOT of pple from outside, and the customers can be so very nasty, alright alright, so partly my fault too i''m a newbie and r not familiar with wat i'm doing yet, BUT i hate to make mistakes, so i'm gonna write down ALL my mistakes n revise them so i will NEVER make them again.
Growing up in a soft and lenient environment has made me a softie, yesterday a colleague screamed cos she encountered 2 paper jams in 2 hrs so she walked outta the photocopier room n screamed 'dun jus walk away when paper jam!!!' and went back inside n started banging things. I'm like, wah... need to be so agitated anot, i always encounter paper jam also ma, jus remove lor, i feel pretty uncomfortable when pple start screaming n talkin loudly, i seriuosly duno jow to handle this kinda situation, i'll probaby cry. Remember the incident with one of my grp pjt discussion, there was a major drama, i held on to winson's jeans n squeaked at him to do something. -_-II I'm such a loser!!! Buck up an yi!!! I must toughen myslef up for harsh situations and brace myself for harsh words, i was thinkin, if i got scolded at wk, i think i'll tear. Damn jialat right. Can someone invent a pill to make me tougher? pls???
Y am i such a push over? When i went for lunch yesterday someone dropped his unbrella on my toes yet he looked at me expectin me to pick up for him, shit right? of course i didnt, i jus walked away, y r pple so damn rude sometimes? or do i hv a push over face?
Anyway, jus wanna relieve my stress on the key board, feelin better now.
Tata!~
8:42 AM
My Name
Friend